for today ,im goin to post abt this .well ,this is what i think la .what my friend say is true la .im trapped in my own world .i knw which decision is right ,and which is wrong .but im choosing the bad one .i knw which is the way i should go .but i just dont want to go to the way i should go .i choose the wrong decision and the wrong way .and it is the one that makes me suffer .suffer all the way of my life .i knw that he have dissapeared from my life .i knw he doesnt love me anymore .i knw everything .but yeah ,im still in my own world .i still think that he is with me .i still think that he loves me .i still think that he care for me .i still think that he is the one for me .i still think that he is mine .i still think that he is the one that can hug me when im feeling cold and all .i still think that he is the only guy that i can love .not other guy .im just trapped .thats all .and i dont want to face it .i keep thinking of the things you like ,and i will have them with me .i still write ur name on my hand ,paper ,everywhr that i can write .but mostly ,i write ur name in my heart from last time .and i cant erase it .i just think that we are still together .evn we are not .thats all .i knw im wrong to do this .i make my life suffered .i make myslf cry .cry when i think that u are still mine .cry wen i see other couple happy together .cry wen i think back what u've done .cry wen i have my pillow and bear with me ,cos to me ,they are u .and ya ,i cry when i see the things i done together with u or planned together with you ,is doing by other couple .what if i were walking alone ,and i saw you ,with ur gf ,doing the things that i shouldnt see ?haisss ..fine ,i knw .by this moment ,evryone reading this will be like ,'cn u just move on ?no use loving a guy that have done dis to you .that dont love you anymore .u have better things to do in life .u still have a long way to go .why must u just stick to him ?' .i knw la u all think like that .but i wntd to be like this ,evn for a few periods ..pls .just let me .i knw u all will be giving up on me ,u guys help me ,but i nvr listen .u all will then like ,for what u all help ryte ?but i just ,idk .its okay la ..i cn handle it ...can i just write some of the song lyrics here ?coz im sad .):tired and lonely still we stand on a road to nowhre .trapped in a world of endless daysmy engine stalling ..body and mind are breaking down on a road to nowhredestiny silent hear no soundas i wait forever farewell ,i miss youim sick of this gdbyescoz it tore us apart right from the starti miss you ...mengapa kau melarikn dirimuku rasa sayuku ingin kau disampingkuseperti waktu dahulukemana kau menghilangkn dirimuku rasa rinduku mencarimu disinggah sanadan aku hilang tempat bermanjakau pula bersuka ria ..kemana kau menghilangkn diriku yg mencarimanakah janji dan sumpah setiamuyg kau berikan kepadaku ..apakah kesalahanku padamudan juga tingkah lakuku itusehingga kau meghilangkn dirimudan aku kehilanganmu ..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~tolonglah ,kembali ke pangkuanku ..ku ingin bersamamu ..seperti waktu dahulu ..kita berdua gembira ...okaayy .done .when im hurt ,there too many song that suits me .the song same with my story .too many till i want to write all .anyone gd at drawing ?i wnt ask hlp me draw someting .):Labels: i suffered my life .
