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♥ Friday, October 30, 2009

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hello again .
so bored , well , just now went for parents meeting .
okayy , now , gonna tell u guys something cute , funny and pitiful .
just now , me and mom went to class , bt outside class , i saw mr allan , sleeping at the chair .
so pity . then my mom was like , 'hello , hello.' then he nvr wakeup . then i sort of shouting for his name then he wakeup . hehes , the he was like , 'oh , soryy2' . okayy .
so , he talk and talk , and talk . since theres no ppl , he talk to me soooo llooonnnggg . tired sia . then luckily ezah come . then qianling , save my life . woooohhooo . anw , thnks for syafiqah gerlfren for giving me advise . ^^ i oso tink i dont want to be with hym . ahahahah . actually , when i knw abt it , i was like , 'yes ar ! serve u right ! this la how guys treat us . when no gerl animre , then want rmmbr us .' thats what i say to my sis . and shee agree , loll . i say to hym , if tomorrow he late , then i walk away lorrhh coz i lazy . since i going bpp with cahaya , then if i dont see hym , i walk , hahahahhaha , i likeee ! now , im so evill , yeaaayyy . anwww , just now sing2 , dnce2 , since i lazy to exercise , me and my sis dnce . and she called me flirty . ahha . 0.0 she beside me . so noisy with her breath . now shes laughinggg . siaoooo . okay , anw , when we dnce , got tke vid , if i nt lazy i post it nxt time , if lazy then too badd . AHAHAH . u cnt watch us dnce . lol . bt i oways dnce at skul ryte ? sometimesss . anw , i think i saww SYAMIRAN just nooww !!! ahaha , my sis jealous lehhh , bluekkk . shes talking nonsense to me now . in eng , 'i like him lah . he like me or not ? but bablablaaa.' i dont enterttain . i just 'ahh , ahh' now she called me bastrd . shes going to get it now . okay , byee . want beat her till she die . sooooo irritatinggg !!!! singing that songgg ! arr ! bye lh !!

~~~~ hey , hey , hey , hey , aku tk percaya cintta .. aku tk percaya cinta .. ~~~~

Labels: damn, fat, fat . girlnakboy, irritating sis

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♥ Thursday, October 29, 2009

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i've been like this for almost 2mth . i wntd to forget evrything , bt i cnt . i wntd to forgive you , bt i still cnt . maybe bcoz i still cnt accpt what u've done to me . i wntd to move and let all this be memories , evn i still cnt forget you . bt i still cnt . i fell as if i hate you sometimes . bt i do still have feelings for you . i really want to have the old me again , the one that always happy , nvr hurt herselves . i hate the new me . i bcum like this bcuz of u . u disappear frm my life , u left me all alone by myselves . u didnt evn rmmbr me . i wntd to move on bcuz of that . and there you are , appearing before me again , saying that i was right . HELLO , you are saying that the girl u've hurt all this while is right by saying that the girl u love is bad , she's a two-timer . and u beg for forgiveness , asking me to be with you again .. bt i just dunno . i give you too much chnces till u bcum like this . and now , i'm finding the ans . should i give u one last chnce ? and if i do , will u not do it again ? or u will just make the same mistake and left me again ? i mean , only aftr u knw that the girl u love is playing two-timer , then u came bck to me . then u rmmbr me ? if not , wil u want to do it ? no . u wont . u said i teach u a lesson which no other gerl had evr teach u . bt idk what . i just dunno if i should forgive and give u a last chnce or not , its damn hard .

Labels: but now, i dunno .

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6:04 PM

♥ Monday, October 26, 2009

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glad everything over . anw , HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY TO IZZAH(26OCT) AND HAIRIE(25OCT) .
well , going to have camp and an outing .
now , dunno why there are no colour to changeee .
well , going to talk abt sat(24oct) .

we went out as there is the show from zss at bpp at garden plaza . last min , went meet syafiqah at jelapang , then meet ros(pity her , alone , been w8ing for us , sorry ros !) . then eat , evn its not breakfast , we considere it as breakfast . then cahaya came . then when we finish eating , want go the garden plaza there , when want go out frm the mc , i at behind , then got this one guy frm what sch look at me and make this weird sound which makes me scrd . like disturb2 . hoho . kay , lame ? thenn , meet amy , awin . thats all ryte ? photo , lazy put . ahah , sorry . thenn , watch the show lorrhhh . then went LJS , they want eat , so i just eat icecream . then , buy food(for family) and bubble tea(for mom) before went home . its a great day . (:

done , p.s , its diffucult to type now , i cut my finger , when want to pell off the apple skin , now left half finger only now . ):

Labels: blood came out

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12:52 AM

♥ Saturday, October 24, 2009

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not going to post bout today , maybe next time .
just , binget . sorry klau aku ckp gyni , jgn krg mara plak . ni utk sapr2 yg maseh tk suker jelh . yg dh okay dgn aku , diam2 . aku tau lh psl tu . dh lame perh aku tau . aku dgn smue pn dh okay . tk tau lh kn dgn sapr2 lagy . abeyh tk perlu perh tulis name aku kt blog kau . klau tk suke boleyh ckp jerh perh . anw , aku dh tawuuhh pn . krg gyni , aku pn binget . org laen pn irritating , org laen pn peragai mcm siaakk perhh . mcm krg tk pena ? abeyh , nk maafkn , adr yg kene discuss . its ur own , whether u ikhlas or not . klau nk aku chnge , krg pn chngge . padahal pade aku perangai aku ttp same . pade akulh . aku dari pri sch g2 perh . tnyr sapr yg rapat dgn aku uyh . klau tk suke , then pasal ar . aku boleyh chnge perh . krg buat gyni , mcm tk fike apr aku rase ? name tepampang sakk . fck . nk buat gyni , agk2 lh , pls . krgnyr perangai pn aku kdg tkle tolerate , tapy aku diam jerh . psl aku tawuuhh , krg tu boleyh berubah . and , tkkn psl nieehh , tk kwn ? matured lhh . jgn mcm pri sch , kwn tk kwn eyh , thanks . akuhh tk buatt papr , krg yg strt dulu , aku pn tk tau apr nk ckp . aku diam , buat hal sndiri lagy bgs . sorang2 . so , nieehh utk sapr yg maseh tk okay dgn aku jerh . aku tk tau sapr . yg aku tawuuhh , aku dgn mai smuer dh okay . nadia pn dh okay smlm . yg laen , tk tau whether iklas ke tk . its not big eyh the prob , then nk besa2kn ? kay , thats all .

aku tk tau asl aku post nieehh . saje jerh . maybe psl aku rase adr org masehh tk suke . and , ni yg slame ni aku nk ckp . utk sapr2 yg dh btol2 okay dgn aku , then bacerh jerh . coz ni yg i feell . thats all . and i feel something that i need to say it .

Labels: sorry to the one that innocent .

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5:24 AM

♥ Thursday, October 22, 2009

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hello2 , sooo , well , errr , kay , how shuld i strt ?
now .
well , last tue(20oct09) , went out with mai .
two ppl , gerekk gylerhh . we lepak at faja , then go bpp , ate LJS , went faja back lepakksss .
well , went hme at 5.30pm due to the gerekness og the lepak-ings .
idonthavethepicwithher .
so , pls go to her blog if u want to see the pic . thankyouuhhh . (:
bt i have my pic . hahas . when going out with adk , kakak , mak , ayah at that nyte , went lot1 .
not much pic luuhhh , lazy to putt . before i put the pic , just readdd .
and ya , idc abt it , well , if u want to F*r**** , then sincerely , no need to discuss . that is to me lh , so i dont care , its better to be alone . i think . ya , i knw . evryone that i love MUST always LEAVE me . ryte ? yeahhh , i knw . ohya , i saw shahirah at segar station yesterday(21oct09) . the story went like this .
yesterday , i take the train in the morning to sch . i at the behind door one . then she is seriously dpn2 me , coz i dpn2 pintu . then nmpk baju , muke smue mcm dier , then aku pn pusing lh , bylerh dierh dh masok , tup2 , dierh kt blkng aku . shit . then since smlm bdae siditu , aku msg lh , ckp hapi bdae pkai hp adk aku , tk tau aku ckkp ikhlas ke tk(mepekkn ? aku tau , hahas) . then aku suro die tnyr shahirah adr gy naek train sega tk , abeyh adrh , so btol lh dierh . at last , aku nk nmpk , akhirnyr nmpk jgk dierh . tapy tk nmpk drg berdue2-an . okayy . end of story .

Labels: hais . its better to be alone, ihatemyselves .

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♥ Thursday, October 15, 2009

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thanks to the one

that make a blog for our class . (:

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7:46 PM

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15/10/09

done the D&T paper(fyi , i use the wrong paper for the orthographic drawing , hais ):) , take the nugget that i reserve , gave hasya some , went to paklong's house in a hurry .

it strtd like this , im the morning my sis wake me up , tot that im late . but instead , she told me that shes gone . i still went to sch . then at paklong house , chnge cloth . sitting there , can jusst makes me cry . seeing my grandma cried , i cried to0 . seeing the ppl cried , i also cry . i knw im not that close but i just felt the sadness . i pitied for her husband , daughter and sons . i hope u all will take it sincerely and be patient . this yr raya , didnt evn sempat to go to her hse , in the end , shes gone .

seeing her being 'kapan' , makes me feel sad . before stepping out from the house , i kiss her for the first and the last time . then , i followed the bus to go kebumikn . its my first time standing directly infront of the kubo , watching them tanam , hearing the ustaz reciting the doa , saying this and that . all that i see , hear , just makes me cry . i feel sad . but i knw her family feel sadder than me .

time just flies away to0 fast , isn't it ? hais . let her go , god loves her more . i hope u will go to heaven .

Labels: breathless, hais . ):, the last time i see her

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7:35 PM

♥ Tuesday, October 13, 2009

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firstly , im going to move on with my life ! WITHOUT HIM ! yeahh ! mesty kuat smgt . haha . for me , tk gune lh . no point loving someone but he/she doesnt love u bck ryte ? and , until when must i be like this right ? thats why ive decided to move on . (: now u will see the old insyirah back . always funny , fun , happy , the one that disturb ppl , talk in the class when HYPER and mostly , CRAZY ! weee ~~~~ i knw u dont like me to be so quiet and sad always . thats why .

secondly , attention !!
I HAVENT DONE MY ART ! GOSH ! HAVENT STUDY FOR HISTORY ! VERY LAZY . ART DRAW LATER AT NIGHT , COLOUR TOMORROW WITH AISYAH . AND , GOD ! I LOST ONE AND THE HALF MARKS FOR MATHS PPR 1 ! ): SIMULTANEOUS EQ. I ONLY FIND THE X ! Y NVR ! I NEVER EVN RMMBR THAT NEED TO FIND THE Y ! ): SSOOOO SSSAAADDDD ! ):

OKAY , DONE . TC ALL . AND , MAY U PASS UR EXM . GD LCK . PRAY THAT I'LL PASS TOO . THANKS . (:

Labels: lazy . ); 0.0

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5:50 AM

♥ Thursday, October 1, 2009

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THIS IS ORIGINALLY MADE BY ME . (:
When i was lost in a maze , i couldn't find my way out . And then , a guy came to my rescue . He held my hand , and lead me to the way out . He then said that he love me and he kiss me . He promise not to leave me . Whenever i lost in a maze , he will always come to my rescue . But now , when i find out that i'm lost in the maze again , he didn't come to rescue me . I waited and waited . Hoping that he would come and rescue me . But he didn't . I tried to find the way out myselves , slowly , alone , in the deep maze , Still , i couldn't find my way out . Because i need him . And there he is , rescuing another girl inside the same maze . I tired to shout for his name , but he didn't even notice or hear me . Instead i saw him holding the girl hand , leading her out from the maze , telling her that he loves her , and he kiss her . My eyes filled with tears . I let them go and be happy together even i'm hurt deep inside my heart . And i stop , thinking , why he left me..

Labels: MADE BY ME

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6:34 AM

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kay , so , long time no post . so super duper lazy . so sorry . many events actually happened . and i am really sorry frens to trouble u guys again . i knw i shouldnt do that . but i dont knw why i did that . i knw its stupid . suddenly my sadness come back . thats all . i promise not to do it again , i'll try . and , thanks to all , that trying to control me from holding the penknife the last time . and thanks to all that control me just to put plaster on my hand yesterday . i was like shoutin dh mcm org kene sampok sayin 'tknk2' . many of you control me . i cant get away , and aftr that , i throw the plaster away , right ? im sorry . i knw u all cared for me . u guys dont want me to hurt myselves . what ros said is true , i should forgive and forget . coz im hurting myselves everyday . but i just cant forgive and forget . i knw he dont love me anymore at all . no use hurting myselves over hym . i just control myselves . thats all . its just that idk why , yesterday and today , my sadness all come back . i started to cry again . and , today his monthsary . nvm , let him be happy lorhhh . its okay im hurt . actually i have make a poem like that , that time , gonna post on another post .

Labels: its okay if im hurt, only my frens care, u dont care

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